Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Kids versus Work, round 1

This one went to the kids, or I should say, the Kid. My DS2 was such a trooper this morning... I had a phone meeting scheduled, and he went out for a long walk with Gramma, but after that, he really wanted to spend some time with me, and I was still on the phone... he was just so upset. I finally got off the phone about 10 minutes before I really needed to, to get DD at her school, just so I could try and calm him down...

I ended up dragging out his old car seat and putting it in the car (earlier we had taken the van in to have the brakes checked, and I had left his carseat in the van -- because of that, I had literally not spent a moment with him this morning)... and after we picked up DD, we went out to lunch and bought her some shoes and the kiddos got to play at the mall.

We didn't get home until 2:30, of course I had told the guys at work I would only be gone an hour, and there I was gone for 3 instead, but I had to do it, my baby really needed some time with me.

I feel a little guilty, though, and I feel guilty for feeling guilty! It's stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. But at least I definitively know that even though I do love my job, I love my kids more, and when faced with abject misery, I will choose a cuddle over a conference call every time.

Between running around with kids and actual paying WORK I don't have much time to post anymore. I wonder how long it will take for the forums to ramp back up again. One of the things with online communities like this is that you're constantly dealing with an influx of newbies, the questions start to recycle after a while...honestly, it can get a little boring. Even before the forums went down I was spending more time in journals than on the boards.

Edited to add: I'm seriously thinking of moving my journal to my own webspace. It was really hard for me to be without this tool during the time the forums were down. I really need to be able to control my own access to it... but I will miss the comments if I move it! I have to decide what to do, how to do it... I do know this is a very valuable tool for me, even if only terms of tracking my RA/FMS flares and whatnot. I've loved exploring all the stuff percolating in the back of my head, from time to time...

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